God is in control ....

I have an incredible sense of peace about our tendon surgery decision in two weeks. Everything always has some risk and it is a risk if we chose to do nothing as well (really wasn't a realistic option). God doesn't promise to always change our circumstances, but He does promise to walk with us, remain in control and provide comfort through it all. This is where we get the strength to keep moving forward in the midst of tough times.

I've struggled a lot lately with how do I know if this surgery will be the last? I said back on surgery #4, #5, #6, #7, etc. that those were all "IT" as well! Only God can answer this question and no one else truly knows. I am hoping and praying for some finality to the situation. My standard has decreased dramatically from where I started and now I'd be happy with wearing nearly any shoe (ok - not so much in favor of the senior citizen tie up ones). I am thankful that there is another option out there for improving the situation and at the same time know that sooner or later you do run out of solutions. I read in physician notes from a recent office visit that my situation was "unprecedented." Great - is there a a bonus fee for that honor? No, it will just be the topic of the next monthly meeting of local orthopedic surgeons. Rest in the fact that if God wants it to be the last one, it will be the last one. Keep thinking that Christmas shoes might be possible ...

Details are continuing to fall into place. I ordered a new battery for my scooter, so it will work again soon. I had a work conference in Rhode Island that I was supposed to attend mid-November for a week, but I was able to get all my money back for the plane ticket & conference fees. I've coordinated follow-up care w/my STL surgeon; Chicago is a bit far to drive for a cast change. Mom & I made a trade recently .... she is making new crutch covers and I made dinner for everyone one night last weekend. Wait till you see the fun fall fabric pattern that I picked!

Pray that I continue to remain healthy in the next two weeks, sleep continues and that my attitude and actions will continue to glorify Him. Please begin to pray for wisdom & skill for Dr. C .... may everything happen as planned and most of all that Dr. C will know during surgery if the tendon was able to be lengthened enough to be successful. If the tendon can be lengthened enough and the skin heals well, we will be good for New Years dancing!

Love & hugs,
je